Contradictory Thoughts About My Fitness Life and Body Image

And I’ll relate them to life a little at the end — I’m sure that has never been done before.

Content notice: body image, mentions of calorie tracking, restricting, internalized fatphobia

Cue the trending TikTok sound “Timmis” by 1 Trait Danger: “I think this is affecting me mentally, like long term sh*t, it’s gonna f*ck with me”

I don’t know when I started wishing every ounce of fat on my body would disappear, but I’ve always felt that way. As an adult who learned about health…